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no more no more like!!


law dy blh lpekn aq,, aq pn bleh lpekn dy en!

 

sengal,,sengal,,n sengal!!

dlu dy kt dy xnk pisa ngan aq,,tp skrg spe tgglkn spe?aq xtao pe y aq ase ble mem aq ckp cmtu..
aq xtou knp ble aq ingt dy,,ad air y kua dr mte ni,,knp ek?aq sdeh?x!dx brutal mne leh nges,,huh!
but ps ni aq arp jgn muncl dlm hidp aq lg,,jgn prnh aja aq erti cnta n rndu lg,,em ht aq trluka laa,,
n mybe luke trllu dlm smpai drhnye kua at hdung aq,,em kejmnye ko!ko mmg kejm,,tramt kejm cos ps 
aq mle ske at ko,,ko prgi cmtu je..ko xtou,,aq skli jth cnte,,susa!n skrg,,cnte aq mcm dipjak2 seenknye!
siyes kejm!plis,,jgn mncl lg dlm hidp aq,,jgn bia ht ni lbeh brdrh..sebb bkn ko y rse,,aq y ase sketnya..
arh!sengl tol~aq xske r jd ciwek cmni,,xde mknenye nges cos dy,,y xde prsaan tu!!!!!!!

tuhan..jgn bia aq mngis lg..

tuhan..htku sdg brsedh y tramt skrg..aq xthu nk wt ap lg..htku trllu trluka..ia msih brdrh ..
ya allah,,bntulah aq..hnya pdmu aq mminta prtolongn..jgn biakn aq mngis mlm ni..

its maybe true,,..

andai sseorg itu trsenym,,psti kt mgganggp dia spt xad mslh,,hdpnya ceria,,
sbnrnya x..org y sllu trsenym itu sbnrnya dy sdg mncuba utk mgubt htnya y trluka..
org y bnr2 mliht snyumn org y cria itu bisa mmbezakn smada ia bnr2 tuls atau x..
sbuah snyumn itu ibrat pnwar ,,ia bisa mgmblikn mud sseorg..mgikt sains & tknologi,,
org y tgh brsedh jga bisa trsenym andai org dhdpnnya tgh trsenym..dgn snyumn ia bisa 
mmbuat hdup sseorg bhgia..andai kt stres,,ap y prlu kt lkukn??bnuh dri??mogok mkn??
x,,kmblilh kpd allah dgn brdoa..ingtlh Dia,,krna dgn mgingati-Nya,,ht akn mrsa tng..
atau luahkn pd sseorg,,jgn biakn ia trs brsrang dlm jiwa..t skit jiwa,,kn susa>>??
hurm,hurm,hurm..!

epi_epi_epi!

em,,aq epi gle arini so wkil wne pepel r,,haha..ok wateve!fes,,aq nak cer at sni y aq pgi peds arini at ngri 9,,em jao kn dr gombk..??but skli skle ap slhnyer?????em dlm prjlnn g peds uh,,aq msj r ngn kwn aq dlu,,mnde bosn.bknnye aq y bwk kete en,,so men henset laa..em fes,,ble smpai,,kne r rgster dlu en..xkn nk men redh je..must hve a bit ptient lorh!huhu..pstu,,ble da regster,,pkai r tag msk..org dwse wne oren,,budx2 wne biru..agk2 aq pkai wne ap??wne itm puth laa!haha..ble msk,,cnfm r bisg en..xkn senyp cm at library plx?(lbrary pn ad y bisg,,)..pstu,,cri port..em aq org y pling laz jd trzan dlm list adk2 aq,,haha..akk xikt,,em biala.ktorg smpai area kol doblz n blek kol 5 stgh..em lmer en??but bg aq kejp je..em pstu men pnye men,,trjn sne,trjn sni,jrit sne jrit sni,,msti r tringn nk naek rolekoste en!msk mhl so kne r men sume,,bru brbloi en!ble ag laa nk dtg pedas y jao ni..huhu..mle2,,ktorg ingt kne pkai plmpung sewe,,ktorg da r xsewe plmpg cos msing2 mls nk sorg sne,,sorg sni..upenye bole gk lau xpkai..pe ag,,aq n adk aq pn naek r..pstu ble smpai sne,,ad la skmpuln dx2 lki y area 20an lepx ctu..rmai dx pmpn nek,,aq pn msti r join en..aq en slumber badx,,haha..pstu y kli ke brpe tah aq nk naek ag,,adk aq ad jmpe plmpg dkt ngn port ktorg..pe ag,,niat at ht nk pnjm,,bkn curi.ag pn js nk tes je pkai plmpg naek rolekoste tu!then,,adk aq naek r ngn adk aq ag sorg,,aq plk naek y xnek plmpg.BUT BUT BUT nk tao x pe y trjd??ad skmpln dx lki but xrmai y cm fes,,area ps zoho r dorg dtg en,,dorg nk glongsor..aq pn bg r dlu,,pstu dy suro aq turn dlu.aq kt r xpe en,,dy kt bia aq trn dlu,,pstu aq kt r aq da byk kli naek,,pstu dy copy blek  pe y aq ckp..peh,,kwn2 dy cnfm r sakt en.but aq sportg,,js anggp dorg kwn2 bru aq..gye cm baek,,dh r pggl aq "äwak",,haha..mmg lki lau jmpe pmpn bru ske cmtu erk??haha lnx laa.pstu adk2 aq nk nek ag,,aq pn folow adk aq then dx lki tu ckp"knp wk nek sne plk.."aq kt r"aq xmen r men glongsr sorg2 en,,"pstu dorg gelk2..aq da mlu nk naek so aq men r trjun2 ag n jd trzan smule,,haha..pstu,,da kol 3 lbeh..kol 5 smua pgunjg kne blek..aq xnk r kempunan en,,so naek ag..ingtkn dx2 lki uh da blek,,upenye lom.aq ingt prknln aq ngn dorg smpai ctu je,,upenye x..aq naek pstu dx uh ckap"ai ,org tu nek plmpg ag ew??"pstu aq ckp "xkn nek kpltrbg plx.."n cm bese,,dorg gelk..n soaln fes y dorg sume tu tny at aq,,"awk fom bpe"plik kn..sllunye org tny"nme awk ap?"ni form,,but xksh la?aq ckp r"korg nk aq form bpe"dorg ckp "nth?gtwla.."aq kt "fom six"pstu dorg cm cye but lnxla..pstu smntre tggu turn nk men rolekoste,,sembg r jp..pstu dorg tny aq tggl mne,,aq ckp pnjre kot..pstu dorg gelk,,lnx ler..pstu ble tem blek,,dorg tggu at tmpt nk msk,,pstu dorg ckp xkn nk blek dh kot?aq kt laa xkn nk tggu mlm bru nk blek?em but dorg xtny pn nme aq n aq pn lpe n tny nme dorg,,n no fon!but,,biala..lau tkder jmpe ag,,jmpe gk en?em so nila memory aq arini,,bes sgt g peds n jmpe dorg y agk spotg tu..??aq hrp jmpe lg r,,hehehe

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em,,ni la foto adek aq y laz,,nakl mcm aq laa..haha~

 em,,y ni plx kakk aq stu2 nye,,ad mke cm aq x??x,,cos dy ikt mke mymom..dy ni
ad pakej jd istri soleha tou,,!!haaha~

ha!y ni plx spe??mstila aq n kwn aq!haha..coml en..[skli skle prsn xpe en],,
y pgg bear tu cnfm la bkn aq cos aq en brutal,,xmen la bear2 ni.haha

ni pulx,,mke aq 10
 thn akn dtg,,but dlm mmpi je r.haha

nyesal laa..

em,,smlm en,,ad reunion skola aq au..nyesl doe xpg..aq xnk pg bkn sbb xbole o ad al,,
but sebb aq mls nk g..ye r,,iemn xpg,,mls lah.tp ble aq tgok poto2 reunion at fb bal,,
aq ase cm sonok..but adam ckp at amany xbes..nthla,,but aq arp t ad sec reu!!aq nk pg..
dh r td syaima' dtg..ish,,asl la aq xpg???!!!!!nyesal tao??

can i cry..??

"knp aq syg dy ble dy anggp aq kwn..
knp aq wt xtao ble dy kt dy syg aq..
knp aq wt dy cmtu!!"~arina,,
"sbb kau xde prasaan!"~makhluk Allah,,


aq egois?aq xde prsaan?aq pntgkn dri?inikh aq??
tp cnte xleh dpkse kn??knp aq bru sedr khdirn dy??
knp ht ni sdeh ble dy prgi??
knp ht ni dsapa angn rndu ble dy xcntec??
slhkh aq myukai llki laen y smemgnya sdh brpny??
aq prmaenkn cntanya,,jhtnya aq!
skrg,,bleh x aq dptkn cntanya smula?????

 

bez laa,,~

em,,arini bes la,,petg td en,,area kol 5,,ktorg g mndi sungai!peh bes gler..but lau mndi aertrjun ag syok,,
bleh jd trzan kjp,,huhu..tp syg r,,td akk xikt n cmera xbwk..lau x,,le rkam mcm2 gye maut aq,,haha!!
em,,esk g pedas,,besnye..

sengal lorh..

arini,,uma aq ,,opps uma mk n ayh aq renewet..em bisg gler r,,but xksh r?
em aq bengkek tol la,,wt kje,wt jela..mte tu jgn nk bkrje gx,,huh!usha2 aq,,
ad ppe y pelk ew ngn mke aq??taola aq xmndi ag tem uh but xkn dy tao kot??
cm tmph pnmbuk je td.heish,,nseb bek r aq sdr dri y aq ni pmpn,,lau x da lmer kne hentuk
at dndg tu..gatl knp??seb bek da blek!aq arp ps ni xde ag renewet2 uma,,
fuh,,lau x,,at mne aq nk nyork??

em,,xsbr nk tggu esk..

hrm,,arini aq ase epi sket r dr smlm..nthla!but,,aq xsbr nk tggu esk,,mymom ckp,,
nk pg pedas..iee da lmer xpg,,brabad la gk!huhu,,arini aq bgun late la cos smlm aq tdo kol 5pg lbeh,,
em so mmg ptot r bgn lmbt en??aq da bgn kol 8lbeh but tdo blekk,,pstu mk aq kjot kol 10,,em..
eh!lgi sminggu nk blek sek.ish!xske r,,t jmpe dx peng tu.......!!
huh!!

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rndula at ieman..em myblueline..
bes r plx jd redline..aq ingt dy da lpe aq,,
ye r xcntec aq pn!but,,nseb bek r diba gtao,,
dy da brubh skrg,,da jd baek..

cuak aq nk tny sal lki at dy,,t dy brceramh..segn t!

memory js memory,,

em,,nth knp,,aq tringt at mem2 aq y pling aq syg,,hurm mmg r aq syg sume kwn2 aq but prshbtn ni
trpts lah~,,em,,aq sdeh ur,,asl kt jd muso??dlu kt xmcm ni,,hepi sgt..knp sebb sorg llki,,kt puts kwn??
korg tao x aq sdeh??aq rndu gler ngn korg,,aq mseh ingt tem kt brdoa tem hujn at ostel,kt sme2 brdoa
agr prshbtn y kt bine taon ni akn brkekln..indh sgt tem kt brshbt,,sorg epi-go-lucky,,sorg mnje,,sorg lwk,,
sorg slumber badx..cm prfec en??lau la aq tao y prshbtn aq ngn sidia akn wt hbgn prshbtn ni puts,,
siyes aq xnk knl pn dy..biala dy jd mlk miss S,,asl prshbtn kt ttp seindh pelangi ps hujn,,..
aritu,,aq pnh nges tem men hujn cos tringt kngn2 ngn dyorg..ya AllaH,,sumph indh gle..em,,knp la
kt jd cmni??aq rndu tem buln 1,2,3..krne miss A,,kt smken jao..korg tao x,,aq thn je aermte ni dr mgler
mmbshi bumi tem mlm annual dinner tem korg brgmbr depn aq!ish,,ciwek tol~but thats me,,only kdg2 k??dlu lau mlm2 sllu lepx ssme,,skrg??em npe ko brukkn aq at adk sidia smte2 nk blek sidia???
aq xfhm laa,,aq ngn sidia kwn je,,asl ko xnk fhm??

                                                        ni la mem aq tu,,


aq still brhrp agr prshbtn kt trbine kmbli wlopn hrpn aq js tggl hrpn,,
miss S,,wlopn ko sllu kutk aq,,aq xmmpu nk bnihkn bnci dhti ni cos ko prnh jd shbt aq,,
bkn skdr kwn,,but kwnbaek.....
miss J,,dlu kt rapt sgt kn..tp skrg??em.....
aq redha dgn prpishn ni but aq xleh tpu dri aq y aq sdeh sgt,,trutama ble tringt memory2 kt y pnoh 
dgn gelk ktwa..memory tem bfde miss J,,mmg indh,,bhkn trllu indh..but akn brulg lg ew mmory tu taon depn tem bfde ko??x!cos miss S da xde,,n ko da ad kwn len y ko sndr xknl ht bdinye,,
kt rapt,,asl ko still xknl aq cmne??
miss AN,,thnks cos stll rapt ngn aq wlopn xsrapt dlu,,


                                              ~ aq ttp ingt korg,,au~
                                                    ~aq syg korg,,~

ble aq nk ngntk ni..

ish,,da nk kol 3 ni,,but stll xngntk ag,,
heish,,akk n adk aq 2org tu xtdo ag..
em lapa la plx,,but mls nk mkn,,haha

ak bengg lah!

ish,,aq pelk r ngn AE!asl ckp aq prmps n EZ pnce??SU xbisg pn,,dy over asl??
nk mmpos sgt ew??skli EZ shoot,,mlyg smpai africa!SU clsh ngn ZA cos slh szi uh,,bkn 
slh aq o EZ,,trime je r hkikt!ag pn,,kpel en hrm??brsyuko r da xwt dose ag,,heish!da r prgai cm pgkid,,
ad ati nk jd cm lki..xsegn,,jd dx slumber bdak cm aq udh r,,ish!sengl la~
asl la AE xpuas ati sgt??aq ad kco idp dy ew??sket pn aq xsnth dy!prgai cm set!
dh r rmps kwn2 aq,,cm sengl!eh,,dy mmg sengl pon~argh!bnci tol,,
ish,,aq kwn ngn ZA pn slh ew??kwn je,,bkn cple,,xfhm bhse mlyu agknyer!
ish,,pggl aq prmps pdhl ko y prmps!prmps kwn2 aq,,prmps JI,SU n AN,,
argh!gle pny pgkid!g mam ag bgos,,mykitkn ati je,,heish!